January/February 2018
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Three nights in a row I didn't sleep. Literally, I sat awake, in my bed for three nights without shutting my eyes for longer than a second. One of those nights, I was swallowing my saliva every 5–7 seconds. I thought the new meds were fucking with my body. My girlfriend was sound asleep when I was wide awake. I remember I started he…